Haven't blogged in how long now?
So bored.
I need pictures. ._.

Haven't blogged in a while.
So many things have happened.
I've changed.
But one thing remains.
I've got so much love to give. (:
And thank God I'm giving it to you.
I should've done this earlier.
I Love You.

(:

I'm so lazy to blog.
STRONGER 2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stronger got the real Resilience camp man.


I missed you.

Hey people! :)
Haven't blogged about my birthday yet uh. It was FUNNNN. I got Nutella'd can.
Sitting down, chilling.
The suddenly, Daesia stands up and runs towards me.
I laugh at her gawkiness.
"Eh woman, what happen to you sia."
She doesn't respond.
She continues running,
She gets behind me.
Then gives me a kiss.
...
LOL. NO LA.
Instead of a kiss, she gives me one big NUTELLA SLAP TO THE FACE.
War ensues.

Thanks, everyone who came! <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

Cherylll! Put your fringe down luh.

Sherweine! Finally, a picture with her that isn't with her. :o You get what I mean. :)

Finally, my comp's back up! Sorry ah. This place is dead. ._.
Lots of things to say. Not much time to say it.
Anyway.
First off, the MASS CIP! Funnnn.
Just imagine,
me, Jason, Joel, Izzu and Skye.
In a lift.
(LIFTTTTT)
(HEEEEEEELLLLLLLLL YEAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH)
Singing Fall For You,
With Skye trying to escape.
SUPER FUNNY.

I look cockeyed? o __O

It's you I wanna see.
You fill my heart with glee,
But then I look again...
And I wish that he was me.




Every Little Thing She Does Is Magic,

School started already.
I'm in 3/4.
I think I hate the place.
I miss my dear 2/5.
All the crap we did together.

I wonder.

When all's said and done,
we're all graduating.
Will we still?
Remember each other?
Our exploits?
Our stories?
Our jokes?
Our fun?

I wonder.

Okay.
Half of 3/4, I'm not close to.
The other half
are from China.
Wow.
Just,
wow.

Everyone else.
I wonder how they're doing.
I miss them.

...

I miss her.

Sorry ah. My life not very interesting. And I think Skye's randomness is slowly rubbing onto me. Ching Chong? Yes.

There's a light that never goes out.

Hello. I'd like to announce my new novelette. BOOOOOMBBB.
But seriously. For this post, I have the first two (very short) chapters. Maybe prologues? Lol! I insist you carefully read EVERYTHING to get the story. Don't worry, the chapters are short! Haha.
Anyway, this novelette, which I'm still in the process of writing, is called,

"New Year's Eve Always Ends With A Bang"

Pretty cool, right? Anyway it's a story about two social misfits trying to find their place in the world. Our world. And to do so, they meet many interesting characters which affect them greatly. Do read, and give me encouragement! :D Haha, constructive criticism's accepted.
Anyway, here it is.

New Year's Eve Always Ends With A Bang.

"So, can you guys drop by later? A drink or two? And damnit, keep it down over there, the road's noisy enough... What'd you say? Huh?"

The taller one was trying hard to comprehend his "friend's"... Noise.

*screech*
"Eh, tell ya what. I'll call ya back. I need to... Settle some things with some people."
*click*

"Aw, damnit. Hell good's our planning."
The tall one swore to himself. He slipped his cell phone back into his jeans. He approched the darker one.

"Look man, this isn't gonna work. how the hell are we supposed to-"

"Shut it," the dark one raised his palm to the face of the tall one, "I know what I'm doing. I know what we're doing. We haven;t seen any action all year, and this is gonna make up for it." He was menacingly calm, and a sadistic grin crawled across his face.

The taller one thought.
It was a simple job. Get a cab, get to the Yellow M and get the loadout, then get the hell outta there in the getaway cab, regardless of how willing the cab driver is to help. It may have been easy to do, but getting caught... That would mean the end. But the dark ine insisted upon it, and the taller one merely followed his leader, albeit meekly.

"Hey dip, get in the cab. We don't have all day," the dark one snapped.

The tall one merely slipped in quietly, letting the dark one do the talking.

"Drop by the East Coast. I'll tell you where to go once we hit the expressway."

"Okay sir!" the cab driver exclaimed enthusiastically.

The flashing lights of the city bustle blinded the tall one. He felt a strain on his eyes. But he had to keep a lookout. Anything could happen. He whispers to the dark one.
"How's it gonna go down at the big M?"

The dark one, sitting with his elbows on his thighs, fingers interlocked under his chin, replies quietly, "I know someone who deals. We could get some pretty damn fine coke from 'im."

The tall one was unsure as to what his comrade meant, and returned to observing life outside the cab. But he knew one thing: If they got caught, they'll sure as hell get made...




Chapter 2.
8.24 p.m.

The tall one was on the verge of sleeping. The trip to the Yellow M took longer than he thought, and he could no longer stand getting his eyes fried. Every time he looked out, all there'd be was streaks of painful light.


The dark one spoke. "Dude, wake up, we're nearing the Yellow M. Driver, make a U-turn here, then turn right into the carpark... Yeah, that one up ahead. Then turn left into the side lane."

The driver asked nervously, " You sure you know where you're going? I don't see anyone here..."

The dark one said coolly, "Hey driver. You want some coke? It'd do you fine as hell."

The tall one gasped. He'd let out the plan. Now he was waiting for the driver's reaction. And whether to react to that reaction.

The driver finally realised what kind of person he'd been driving around, and gulped. He had no choice but to follow the dark one's orders. He hesitated a moment, and said. "Erm, I'm, erm fine."

The tall one relaxed, and the dark one spoke once again."Good then. Now, turn left and go forward, the road after the turn's pretty long, and it may get deserted, but just go. By the way, I'm gonna have to explain a few things before we get... What we need. "

The dark and the tall ones kept quiet. All they could do was wait for the sign which would lead them to the loadout order area.

They finally saw it. A discreet Yellow M.

"Drive onto that path right there," said the dark one, "Yes. The neon signs. There."

They stopped by the neon signs. A voice came out of a box.
"So, what'd your loadout be?"

The dark one seemed pleased. "I'll have a large coke, and a McNuggets meal. Change the drink to ice Milo."

"Sure thing. Do wait while we prepare."

"Go forward." commanded the dark one. The cab driver nodded furiously and made the cab inch forward.
(Have you realised how stupid this is yet?)
"Here's your order. That'll be $8.65."

"Oh, good," mumbled the dark one as he took the loadout.
Suddenly, the tall one screamed.

"Oh God!"

This shocked the dark one, and he immediately shot a look at the tall one. "What!?"

"Look at the time! It's 8. 39! Shit man, we're gonna get made!"

The dark one panicked, and shouted at the cab driver.
"Driver! Floor it! We need to get the HELL OUTTA HERE!"
...


LOL. Cool right? Post your comments! :D


We are nowhere, and it's now.

Oh goodness. I actually went to cut my bush of a hairstyle. School starting lah. :(

I got nothing to post about la. But I actually took pictures of me getting a haircut. I'm such a himbo. Influence from Daesia one.

My hairstylist thinks that this picture is nice. I think I look like a girl. And not a very pretty one. D:
Yeah! This is the crap they do to me! Like girl siaaaa.

Ah, shiny moptop, thou art complete. This was taken from the mirror, of course. Notice my room has a sudden change of colour in the wall painting. I like that. :D
I look angry, but in actual fact, I'm just as sleepy as Qiu Rong during Chinese lesson. Which is very. My hair is like, so bowl. Bowl=GOOD, but it does not necessarily apply to everyone. Damn.

GET READY TO MEET ME AND MY HAIR NEXT YEAR!

I totally ran out of emo things to say.

Yayyyy! Finally, Hannah uploaded the photos! Thanks Hannah. (:
Take this as a continuation to the other day's post; this is when we went to play TENNIS! (Which the girls are like, insanely good at la. :o)
Anyway, here are the PICS! :D
Sorry la. Not I take one can. I really need to cut my hair. :o ! My friends are stoning in tha back. Terence looks angry. o_o

Ah, the girls. All of them look the same, but different!
Left to right: KaiYun likes rootbeer, Hannah's taller than everyone, Sarah (bangs are cool!), Sherilyn looks tall, but actually is not, and Nicole has a rocking Milo shirt which I sincerely like.

We may be teens, but that doesn't mean all of us have matured through puberty. Check out Marc Leung And Ryuto Tamano, wanting to throw Jun-An into the nearby pool. Yes, yhis is the kind of crap we did in primary school. o_o

AIYO TAIJI LIAO.
(James: "DON'T MAKE ME S-LAP YOU YOU AH!")
James looks larger than he actually is, because he's muchmuch closer to the camera.

It was night, Hannah got bored, and took random photos. I edited this, obviously.
"Brookvale Tennis Massacre! Starring James Huang.

Nothing much to say about this. It's just a guitar, but a nicely taken one.

Afterimages! As you can see, James is a hell lot smaller than he appeared. :D

And, of course, the obligatory group photo. Click to enlarge!
Behind: Ryuto, Kai En, James, Jun-An, Soon Tze, Eielson, Marc, Terence and Jude.
Front! : Nicole, Kai Yun, Sarah, Sherilyn, Hannah, and I don't know why, but instead of standing with the guys, I'm like, sitting in the girls' row. Is they sarbo me can,

Haha, that's all I guess.

On a side note: ScHOOL IS STARTING! D: / O: / |: / \: / (: / :) / :D!

I can't wait to see you again. MILEY FTW!

OMGGGG. It's so weird. I met my Henry Parkers for a reunion "party"! :D happyisme!
Woke up at like, 9 plus just to go to frikkin' Clementi. Because my friend lives there! Met Eielson at Henry Park, Omg. Nostalgiaaaa. So long never go there! And don't intend to go there, really.

Damnnnnn. Most of my guy friends are geeks! Like me la. :D

Then, went to Kai En's house. Here's a weird thing. Hannah organised this. Yet it's like, at Kai's house. o_o

(cue HEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLL YEAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH) The dooooods, man. You can see me there being all hombo-ish. (Blame Daesia for the use of "hombo"). To the right is part of Jun-An's face. From the left is Terence, then Jude. They're like, watching James and Eielson play CoD4. @_@

Terence on the right, me, and Marc Leung playing DJMax. We're nerds la. Haha.

Eielson in all his CoD4-playing glory. Damn unglam, sorry Eielson. You can see Terence, erm, "chilling" in the background. 0_0

Not Pictured: Fun.

From left to right! Sarah! (You can't actually see her except for her legs, but she's there next to Sherilyn.) She cut bangs! Not bad lah. Bangs are GOOD. :D Next!

Sherilyn. Still small. Still cute. :D Not as friendly as I used to know her as. D: But still has the power to attract an unnecessarily high number of guys. Squashers! :o Picture doesn't do her justice.

Hannah Yeo! Hey, if you're reading this, Hannah, I'd like to tell you. When you taking picture rite. Your face very cute. xD Eyes become big, mouth become small. LOL. And I didn't know you played tennis! o_o

Then, there's KaiYun (sp?). Still quiet. But laughs more at our stupid antics. Don't really know much. :o Sorryyyyyy! :(

Then, Tan Jun-An in white.

Kan En in black. :D He very funny eh, I just realised. He's nicer now.

Kai En's brother in orange.

Then James. Go and grow! Drink milk. Eat beef. :o

More pictures coming tomorrow, when I rip a buncha stuff from Hannah's Facebook. xD Btw! Hannah! Thanks for saying grace over our McDonald's! xD

You wanna know the best part?
I was missing her the whole day. :)

Implosion Explosion.

God, I'm stupid.

So much for a Merry Christmas.

-EDIT-

You know. I realise. I really can't figure out the way she thinks. I think that's why I'm so insanely attracted to her. She's really like nobody I've seen, and I'm impressed by that. Haha. I'm WEIRD. Girl, you're so damn hard to figure out, I only want to know you more. :)
Haha, I'm happy, I don't know why. May be cheesy, but for some reason, just thinking about her makes me elatedddddddddddddd. :D (cue HELLLLLLLLL YEAAAAAHHHHHHHH) :D

By the way guys, if whoever reads my blog wants the dolphin game back, feel free to tag a request.
Until then, here's another game I love! It's really addictive once you figure the crazy physics out.

-EDIT-
The game doesn't work. -.- So here's The Dolphin Game. -.-

Free Flash GamesandFree Online Games
crazy life.

It's gonna be Christmas soon.
Be happy, people! Here's a great Christmas song from 1994, back when we were being born!
At least, I was.

It's by Mariah Carey. And it so translates how I feel man. But we can't have everything now, can we? :/

Mariah Carey - All I Want For Christmas Is You



Merry Christmas and an "I love you".

Yes. This is the post. This post will officially remove the dolphin game. Sorry Dolphin Game fans.
ANYWAY. HERE IS A QUIZ THAT TECKSOON/JOEY TAG ME ONE! Now in blue!

1.D0 you have any secrets?
My greatest "secret" got bombed weeks before I planned to tell anyone about it. But that was completely off point! :D Eh, yeah, I do.

2.Would you fall in love wif a boy?
Teck Soon-"eeee..i not gay bodoh.."

Me- Maybe that ParaPara guy at TM, damn smooth eh. OR NOT.
Sorry homos, I'm straighter than Joey's hair. Which I assume is very straight.

3.Do you enjoy goin to sch?
... yeah. :)

4.Wat will u do wif $100000000?
I'd give it all to charity. (HELLLLLLLLL YEAAAAHHHHH RIGHT.)
I'd hire a love guru 3 times over, then buy a coke. And some new clothes, maybe.

5.Wat's ur view towards love?
When your better half controls your emotions better than you do.

6.Which is more blessed?lovin some1 or being loved by some1?
Loving someone. Everyone else says being loved by someone, but what can be better than hearing that someone say that she loves the way you love her. Confusing, but read slowly.
There's a song.
(Ooh, I love the way you-
love the way-
you love me!)

7.How long would u be willing to wait for some1 u love?
I'd wait until Michael Jackson becomes black again. Which'll never happen. So that's a lot of waiting there. :) It's been almost two years, infinity more to go.

8.If th person u love is not attached,wat will u do?
Hope that she's happy? I don't know.

9.Is there anythin tt makes u extremely happy?
:)

10.Wat makes u angry?
Playboys. -.-

11.How would u see urself in Ten years?
Using a mirror.

Erm. I'd be 24. Aspiring lawyer?

12.Hu is currently more important to u?
Than who else? Most important? There isn't any one person.

13.Wat is th most important tin in ur life?
My heart? Both emotionally and physically la.

14.Wat if ur best friends drop into th water n dunno how to swim?
I don't want to answer this, so I'll exploit its loopholes. Let us imagine that The water is about a foot deep. My friends aren't that stupid to drown like that.

15.Wat is ur favourite colour?
Grey?

16.Would u give ur love all in relationships?
All of my love? Hell yeah. If I get broken I'll just apply for a refund.
(I've got so much love to give, but nobody to give it to.)

17.If ur ex hurts u badly,wat will u do?
I don't want an ex. Physically? I'll go see a doctor. Emotionally? Erm. Cry.

18.How are u feelin now?
Fine, thank you?

19.Love or like?
What? Love or like what?

20.Hu tagged u?
TeckSoon/Joey Chiew.

21.Pass this quiz to 10 ppl to see how they feel bout u.
Don't feel like leh. Don't wanna bother them, they've been through this.

(questions 22-38 (I think), are now void.) :D

By the way, here's another hit from 1974, gets my groove going! ^^
Tell me this song won't make you bop around, and I'll call you a hero!
The Rubettes - Sugar Baby Love



the smallest thing can make the biggest difference.

Ugh. I tell you. Sometimes I feel like just calling her.

Scream out loud.

" I love you, now please, just know this - you're able to break me, But I'm sure as hell you can make me happy."

And for her to respond,

"Err. Okay? So... You feeling alright?"

I just can't find a way to talk to her. I know she cares. But it's weird for me.
Sometimes I feel like pouring my heart out to her, there's lots of things she doesn't know about me... But I can't find a way to say it. To tell her.

But then.
I live in a generation that believes conformity is individuality...

Sometimes I feel... For her to even care that bit...
I'm asking for too much.

Then again, my life just sucks like that.

Woman, read this, realise. I love you. With all my heart. And I'm not gonna let you go.
You may not know. And you may not care.
But just look back... I'll be there for you.
Times when you're happy, I'll celebrate by you.
Times when you're down, I'll cry for you.
And times when you just don't want to go any further...
I'll carry you on. All the way there...

And I mean it.


It's coming down to nothing more than apathy.

Turn off that sexy Club Soda song on my Imeem open a new tab, go off surfing, let this YouTube video be your background music.

Listen to this old gem from 1982. It never fails to cheer me up, it's so damn catchy and singable.
plus it helps me forget.

Dexy's Midnight runners - Come On Eileen



Hey Jomin, if you ever see this, do explain about the Eileen thing. Haha.

Miracles happen. But not on me.

Sometimes, I just don't know what to do with myself.

I'm a hypocrite.
I say things about people I don't like.
Yet I act like them.
People hurt me, and I think to myself, I won't do that to them.
Yet I hurt them back.
I tell other people about how I should become nicer.
Yet I act like a jerk.
I say to them, I'm gonna change, I'll be less immature, more understanding.
Yet I'm still as childish as ever.
I tell my friends, I'm gonna change things. I'm gonna make things happen.
yet...


Everything that happens to me are because of me.

Erm. Went to Orchard road today with Ben, Daesia, Sherweine, Sara, Xavier, Keith, Syukri and Adrian. "Christmas Party" la. Theme of the day: unnecessarily glam. Wow.

Either way, me=Pink Polo, Dark blue jeans, Black Convies and a tie. Yes, a tie. But it's not like everyone else followed the dress code anyway.

Met Xavier, Ben and Keith earlier. They come slack at my house. Imagine: Keith's playing my PSP, Ben's on my bed (erm... Yeah.) trying to play my acoustic, X-man's bobbing to the music I'm blasting... And I don't know what I was trying to do, actually.

After that, went to Sara's house. Met Adrian and Johnathan Tay. (lol, j-tay.) After a bit of lagging we go mrt to go orchard, while j-tay pangseh go watch Tom & Jerry live at Eastpoint. o_o

Reached orchard cineleisure, slackslack wait for Sherweine and Syukri to come, then go arcade play. Somehow we managed to end up in Plaza Sing. But on the way there. I realised. I'm a frikkin' idiot. It was bad enough that I was making alot of noise. But the way I acted. It was so damn childish. But I didn't realise until everything was said and done, when Syukri and Sherweine had left. Wth kind of impression did I give? ):

I was pretty damn sad the rest of the day, actually. The way I was. I couldn't stand myself. I forced myself to be "outgoing", to the point that I acted like I was five. What the hell's wrong with me? That's the complete opposite of who I really am... But they don't know that. She doesn't know that. I felt like a complete failure.

Sometimes I feel so damn pissed with myself. I try to change things. But I'm just making things worse. For the rest of the night, I just thought. I didn't speak. I just meddled in my own business. My own world. The way I'm supposed to be.

I thought to myself. If I pretend to outgoing, I tend to overdo it. More so in front of her. When I see her... I really don't know how to handle myself. I don't want her to see me as a loner. But I don't want her to see me as an immature brat. And yet, I went off and totally blew it.

Most of you reading this should know who she is. And, I honestly, highly doubt this. But if for some reason, God lets you see this... I love you. And I'm sorry. Sorry for pretending to be someone I'm not. Sorry for having you lose face. Sorry for even liking you. I'm probably just a burden, and a burden that's not worth your time. I'm sorry.

Luckily I had my friends with me to cheer me up. Thank you, all of you. You're great people. And you all deserve the best. Thanks for being there, really.

I admit, I'm still a bit sad now, but I don't think I want to end this post in such a sombre mood. But don't expect to see me smiling like that as I post the pictures.

Syukri and me in cathay. I look retarded. I deserve it.

Sara and me in Sara's house.

Eh. Trippy.

Me and Daesia at Sara's house.


Me and Adrian at Sara's house.

... eh.


i'm sorry, i did not mean to hurt my little girl.
it's beyond me, i cannot carry the weight of a heavy world.

Heh. Went to celebrate my dad's birthday at Pan Pacific. The buffet shiok bodoh. But now I'm fat(ter). D: His birthday's tomorrow, actually. :o
BUT WHO CARES. JUST LOOK!

Oh my God. Pinch me, I'm DREAMING. ROAST BEEF!!! :DDD With mashed 'taters, too! :ooo Heaven is a place on Earth~ (but not when it comes to love ): )


Ah. You can see my two sisters here, Celine and Jamie. Right-est is my aunt. Now. Sherweine, if you ever read this (which is highly unlikely. Damn. ): ), I'd like you to know, YOU REMIND ME OF JAMIE! But you're less bitchy la. But like, you know, she's like damn glam, and, er, you are, (I think) plus you two have *technically* the same hairstyle, plus she can really make me laugh, and, erm, you, eh... I shall say no more. :x LOL.


Notice Celine's glasses.

SIA LA. Damn Beatle-y, bodoh. Propped up my hair for added 80's effect. Old School is cool, tyvm.
Do not laugh, or else I'll start wearing my dad's golden-framed aviators. >_< lol!
when you and I collide,

EDIT!

It's my Dad's birthday~~~~

See that handsome man there? Just like the son sia. :D LOL. jkjk. (to an extent).

He's a very funny guy. We gave him 50 bucks worth of beer and peanuts to snack on, LOL. The first thing he said was "Eh. The 'happy birthday' on the wall. You spell wrong.". Then we were like "HUH?". So we checkcheck, Then he suddenly say "Okay, I lied". T_T LOL.

The thing about him is, his hairstyle used to be like mine! But longer! :o That's what he claims la. So imagine.

(cue HEEEEEEELLLLLLLL YEAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH)

when you and I collide. Again.