Sometimes, I just don't know what to do with myself.

I'm a hypocrite.
I say things about people I don't like.
Yet I act like them.
People hurt me, and I think to myself, I won't do that to them.
Yet I hurt them back.
I tell other people about how I should become nicer.
Yet I act like a jerk.
I say to them, I'm gonna change, I'll be less immature, more understanding.
Yet I'm still as childish as ever.
I tell my friends, I'm gonna change things. I'm gonna make things happen.
yet...


Everything that happens to me are because of me.